Walking Away from the Game: A Footballer’s Story #

Nina Wilson, a close friend and former teammate of Maddy Cusack, decided to walk away from her professional football career. She believes the game’s reluctance to change and accept criticism contributed to the lack of support systems that led to Cusack’s death.

Wilson and Cusack played together at Sheffield United, where Wilson cherished her role as a professional player. However, disillusionment with the club’s response to Cusack’s passing drove Wilson to quit the sport. She endured a difficult period under manager Jonathan Morgan, experiencing feelings of worthlessness and isolation.

Morgan, the subject of a Football Association investigation, was accused by Cusack’s family of contributing to her mental distress. Despite some players finding him supportive, others, including Wilson, described him as divisive and favoring certain players over others.

Wilson decided to speak publicly in solidarity with the Cusack family, expressing concerns that the necessary lessons haven’t been learned. She believes football must address these issues to prevent similar tragedies. The women’s game faces financial challenges, with players earning low salaries despite high demands. Wilson had to supplement her income with additional jobs.

Cusack, a former vice-captain at Sheffield United, experienced a loss of confidence and became withdrawn under Morgan’s management. Wilson recalls that Cusack made efforts to please him, but the team environment deteriorated. Players felt invisible and undervalued, fearing retribution for speaking out.

An in-depth inquiry into Cusack’s death is pending, with Wilson advocating for improved player support systems. She hopes to ensure Cusack’s family is not alone in seeking justice. Despite calls to retire Cusack’s shirt number, the club has not taken action, and some feel forgotten.

Wilson now contributes to the MC8 charity foundation and conducts mental-health workshops. Although uncertain when she’ll return to playing, she remains committed to advocating for change in football. “I can’t play football unless I love it. And my love for football won’t return until something changes and there is justice for Maddy.”